This sleep deprivation will surely be the death of me. I think I am beginning to see things, or maybe I was already this crazy, then again it is still alarming. Either way you look at it, it's not a very good situation. On one hand I will be sleep happy and laughing at everything, on the other hand I will constantly be going mental because I think I can see a snake wrapped around my ankles. I wish that tonight would be different, I wish that tonight my mind would just shut off and lulls itself to sleep. Wishful thinking? Most definitely. But what do I have to lose.
Today in my class we were asked to write three paragraphs on our past, present, and hopeful future. I wrote one. It was about what I would like to happen and the obvious facts, i.e. my name, age, and place of birth. I could find no moment in my past that would be in any way interesting or helpful. I though of everything that has happened to me in the last year, and there seemed to be very few happy moments. And the moments that seemed important were over cast with painful memories. Things that I would just rather forget. When I was asked to write about my present I could think of nothing to write that wouldn't compromise another. Every moment that seemed so good in my life ended badly. Every little inch of happiness was shrunk down until it was nothing but a minuscule spec. Everything changed. And it certainly wasn't for the better.
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